Death of a curious child

What I thought: Travelling across the universe, watching supernovas.
On earth, a small house with a big garden and a telescope room,
travelling to the mountains & exploring the rare beauty of nature, reading books.

What happened: Family finance went wrong, lost the good school & good city.
Back to the village. 

What I thought: Boarding school, good friends, best sportsperson, a class topper.

What happened: Boarding school, only one but a best friend, second-best sportsperson,
4th rank in the class.

What I thought: Finish new course asap, get the job, big salary, gifts to the family,
family vacations.

What happened: moved to a new city, fall in love with a wrong person,
years late to finish the course, awful job, peanut salary, petty gifts to the family
but a lot of family vacations.

What I thought: New city, new life, good job, late but achieving dreams of having a house.

What happened: New city, average job, marriage, divorce, a bunch of good friends,
struggle with finance, continue in the average job.

What I thought: Start a fresh, move abroad, study further, take care of parents.

What happened: Tried for abroad, fall in love again, married again, a promotion.

What I thought: Travel places with my love, settle in the job, have a baby, get a house.

What happened: No more travel, pregnancy, miscarriage, stuck in the job, poor finances.

What I am thinking: A baby, a house, Travel, love and live

What will happen: ??

Happened to me too...

hmmmm... dont know when but it happened to me too...

without my permission ...
Like a cool breeze passing me in cold chilling winter night...
Like a shower of tiny raindrop falling all over me...
Like a dream playing with my thoughts again n again...
it happened to me too.

without any if and buts..
Like a flame raising high crossing its limits...
Like a star falling burning its distance...
Like a flower opening to the sun..
it happened to me too.

without any desire or dread..
Like a butterfly to flower...
Like a river to sea...
Like a night to dawn..
it happened to me too...

Truth... i dont like...

Y i need to be true??? since when i lied about something serious...think when did you...

Even in hard time we showed our bravery and speak the truth.. but y its so important???

it will prove me a good person??? this is what other expect from good person???

It brings satisfaction??? It make things alright??? 

Noooo....

We don't lie because we are scared of being caught... we are not brave... we are scared of being exposed by the others for things which THEY do not consider to be good... That's it.

Many truths broke hearts...bring distance...lose people we love...

Still we want to be true...Honest... no lies...

I hate to be true...but still i will do best to be true..because i am a coward..

I cant afford lies... they are heavier than life... and i am not strong enough to carry them...

I want my life simple yet to followed by difficult truths...

i will follow the easiest path...

choose the truth...once spoken...stay stable..no further support required...

Simple life..with all the difficult truths... 

:)